smoke

5/6

so at 10 30 am i had my environmental chemistry final, and i studied a huge amount with noah(who was sipping on beers within breaks), and we watched the last part of the lakers/suns series, and a few distractions her e and there, but we did do good thorough studying. woke up at 9 am to do some more computer studying-looking at slides here and there. 10 20 am noah and i headed down to the final. i went to it with a good conscience that i had put in a good effort on my part(within my abilities offcourse). i was writing so much on the exam in the essay part i was like pausing something half way thru the exam cause my fingers were getting so tired. i submitted my last lab assignment to greenaway, and after the final was submitted, i felt really good for some reason. i really don't think he will fail me. i mean, i wanna bet on it( maybe to assure my confidence). i emailed mommy and told her that i had to take the final, which i really think was a blessing indirectly( i hope it really turns out to be that in reality).

raul and i were just going around campus in the afternoon bullshitting with peeps. william and maud came through and chilled at 112 for a little while. so late in the evening night plans started coming up. raul was saying MHC was gonna be his hustle for the night. monkey bar, amherst was the destination, and i wanted to come, but something inside me was just telling me not to go, and i just didn't fight it, so i just decided to chill on clark campus. ALso, i kinda wanted to sleep in a bed, instead of the floor somewhere like a refugee, which is what i thought would have happened if i went to MHC tonight. so iwent down to nate's room, and choch, G, me, asher, niko, niko's brother, nate , marc and gervais were all there, and we were just killing the mic. we went on oochie wally beat, some of nate's shit, it was hot. niko's bro killed it everytime. talented kid . after that G, asher and iwent down to asher 's place and smoked a blunt while sipping on wine and watching SA kill kings in the playoffs. after smoking, chinese food, after chinese food, cookies and cream ice cream. Oh shit, it was luxurious. after that we just chilled and i walked back to the 12 and slept.peaceeeeeeeeeee

day and nightmares

5/4
well i was tryin to wake up at 6 am to st udy for my miracles of asia final, but i ended up waking at 6 30am because i was so tired( i always wake up way later than i intend to , but thats just cause sleep is so nice and makes me feel so so good). well i wake up at 6 30 and find out that the final is at 8 30, instead of 8, so i did have the same amount of time to study that i would have had if i had woken up at 6 and the exam was at 8, so no time lost-efficiency kemji. well i do a little reviewing and stuff and i kinda felt good about the final, and i go into the final with redbull in hand, and that was actually the first time i had really looked carefully at the redbull during my bored exam time. irealized that redbull has something called taurine. well this was interesting. as a bio major , i thought like after 4 years and few days from grad that i would know, but i';ve never encountered that word in my life. the final went very well actually. professor aoyama was smart enough to bring out questions from her midterm, and i actually enjoyed that. i took advantage of that, and really got all the questions i missed on the final. i think i will get an A- on the final. if i do get that A- and she gives me like B+ on the paper( hopefully), i am well on my way to get either an A- or a B+ in that class. she knows she can't fuck with me when it comes to politics. goddamnit!well i was just chilling and having a good day, until i got the nightmare that i think is kind of a blessing in disguise. the late withdrawal i aplied for in environmental chemistry was turned down. i kind of felt depressed ,but i was just like "kemji, what if you do decent on the final? ". so if i do well on the final , greenaway is probably gonna give me a C or C- and we'll call it a deal, and taht way, as of may 22nd, i will really be done. well noah and i studied for that shit tonight, and it was serious. i did adderol for the first time( 10mg), and i felt like a slight serious pressure on my cognitive ability in terms of being focused), but then afte ra while, i kind of felt like i couldnt really focus for too long on the shit anymore, like my brain felt dense and heavy, so i just went back to my room and slept. i woke up the next morning and studied some more. well we had the soccer game . it was senior varsity players VS juniors. well at first, when the game began i was on th bench basically, and i felt dissed cause ryan deans was playing on the senior side, but he was a damn junior. i should have had his place. period. i know he would say its not a big deal, but thats not the issue. the point is that i was a senior and i should;ve had my place on the senior team. talk about respect. the soccer team9varsity) is so corny, i can';t believe it. they come off as 1st class meatheads. their jokes aren't funny at all, and believe me, for me to say that, ur jokes are like mind genocide. it hurts to just take it in and listen to all the crap. forcing the laugh is evenworse. in any case, we bat the juniors 3-2, and raul burst jim's head open when they went for a header. they went up, i saw raul cock his head forward, i saw them land, and then people said there was blood on jim's face. weak skull skin i guess. he got the hit in the back of his head.......DUH! he's shorter than raul; and he was jumping like he was yao.leah sent me a lose text.i wanted to do the damn thing, but i had studying to do. sometimes i feel ify i don;t know why.well the day went fine. later! peace..............................

Hmmmm

5/3

Ok, so today wednesday kind of went like a boring day that had little or no personality worth remembering. Well first of all, i didn't really verify from evette that the college board had met an made a decision in reference to my late withdrawal from that environmental chem class, maybe i am not ready to hear the news, hopefully its good news. so yea, the swimmin thing for 7 30 pm was a decent success i think. a whole bunch of people came and that really made it fun. me, aaron, raul, jesse, jess, tim, sarah, elena and jaime were all there. offcourse all girls in bikinis(aaron noted that), and the did look cute and sexy man. we had the "chicken fight" as jess calls it, and jess was on my shoulder , jaime on raul's , elena on aaron's and sarah on tim's. it was funny. only sarah and jess remained after, and after that, grabbed jess's feel brom the bottom and just floped her backwards. she thought that was sexy(who am i kidding). so yea people started quitting the swimming like 40 mins before the pool was to be closed, an this kind of killed the group vibe, but whatever, i had gotten some decent exercise, so i could care less, i probably didn't have the energy to do all that swimming. i even raced jesse in the swimming pool, despite the fact that all th girls were treating him like he looked like an albino or some shit. well we did race , and jesse beat me . everyone was telling him to give me a headstart, but i decided to do it manly and fair. i raced him fro the same line! and he did beat me, but for someone who is not on the clark swim team for years, and just a regular folk, he didn't beat me by much, as a matter of fact, if he was in my condition, he would have gotten killt. so yea, obi and nate's track was really hot. i keep listening to it often ,and thinking of ways more collaborations can happen. i talked to onye today, and we talked for like 30 mins. i was able to get $100 for my senior week activities from her, and i thanks and appreciate her for that. it really means alot because when the max amount in your bank account is $20, no charity is really willing to help you get into the three digit dollar values.
my interest in domaining is still there, but my level of activity in the industry with regards to posts on namepros.com and domainstate.com have reduced some. i feel its because i'm kind of broke, so even if i se edomains i like, purchasing them is far beyond my reality, but i'm still watching and seeing whats going on. so yea, i watched some more ogrish.com videos, and i don't know what fascination i have for like cars blowing up and videos from fighting in chechnya.
flurl.com and youtube.com and becoming big time sites i love. you can literally find anything from smack DVDs to spandex videos( i did do a search today about that, i don't know why,maybe my kinky side).
i think i really like courtTV. i just came to realize that court TV is my shit!. i really am not the biggest supporter of police in the US, but i like cops. its interesting to watch scenes develop and analyze how people handle situations and how things escalate.few getaways though, and i would love to see more. OK, so lakers lost on the 2nd to suns, but they are up 3-2 now, and ALL they have to do is win one of the next 2 games. fucking kobe better deliver. the SUns momentum is now increasing, but i think lakers can finish them off. really. KOBE, KOBE.ok.
yea, so de lat was closed at like 9 40, when they said they closed at 10, so fuck em. we( jess, raul , me , aaron and sarah) went to the vietnamese restaurant that replaced house of india, and to me it was an eye opener. their food is very good, and just as affordable as de lat . i need to apply some sharia to de lat and hack the finger of their ego off or something. the music too was cool. the girl serving us gave me a short list of artists whose music was played in the restaurant. alot of politically incorrect statements were made at that table. i think people at the table could have eased up a bit when those things came up, but it was what it was. nigger was said , "white people" was mentioned. etc well it was a cool night it was nice to just view jess and sarah next to each other. very pleasant to my optics.

last days of college

Ok so here is the deal: its 2nd of may, and graduation is on the 21st of may , and i just have an urge to document all that is going on in my last 3 or 3+ weeks of c olelge left, cause its really gonna get gummy and interesting as this goes on. I just wanna be able to come back and read documents seriously documenting what really is going on in this chapter of my life. people say i'm funny and that i should have a radio station, and i kinda wouldnt mind having that, but thats hectic, and lame clarkies will probably get offended or some shit, but the blog was just setup yesterday, and its damn easy.

5/2
ok so today at 11 30 raul, i and lincoln were supposed to go with jenna to see her new apartment we're supposed to be subletting this summer( i gotta take a summer class, and hopefully find a summer job with ryan small), but i had been smoking so much trees last night and i had 2 drinks, and iwhen i woke up today at like 10 am, i really realized 11 30 was SOoooooo early. man Jenna must think i'm in my regular summer job mood, ready to go at like 7am or what.so in cany case, lincoln bombarded my phone with calls, i even had my finger on the mute button on my phone because i knew once he called , i wanted to just silence all that ringing while i was having good sleep, raul too was having good sleep . well i'm just online now writing this blog, i got a final in miracles of asia in 2 days, and i gotta start studying for that shit, i can't even do any work anymore! fuck, senioritis really exists let me tell you. you just feel like out of 4 years in college, the 4th year is your best year to feel like a loser. its common too. i thought i was the only one lacking motivation, but thats not true.that makes me feel good cause at least so many people are sharing my problem, thereby not making it too hard on me. cool. i am proud of myself for finally setting up a blogger kemji blog blog going on. really proud. so lets see whats really going on with me. em.well credit cards are really uip my ass, but i have blocked them kind of out of my head, which was really a feat cause i'm 130 % realist, and i never run from th truth or inevitable, as a matter of fact, i run to them, deal with them , and get happy that i don't have any more shit on my dick. well today i'm supposed to study a good amount( i really hope i do cause i'm a potential A student in this miracles of asia class, and the woman knows it!), but for some reason i have a feeling i'll end up leaning somewhere just puffing on a blunt or some shit. i wonder what Leo is up to. that g uy is a pimp. he even got the phone number of the female lifeguard on duty last saturday after he and i swam for a while. that was wild. and he has a girlfriend. don't you like that joke? he is soooooo disillusioned. something tells me that senior week or weekend is gonna be really wild. like i feel girls will not give a fuck about what gossip develops as a result of their actions like hooking up. it'll actually be cool if that happens. everyone will just let go. go orgies! lol. well that was a little exposure of my sexual preferences, but whatever.dem goneeeeeeeeeeeee......that gentleman song is so hot, and i'm listening to that right now while i'm writing this boring blog, but since its for records sake i guess i will not call it boring stuff. actually the way i'm writing this blog is that i close my eyes, talk shit to myself about whats going on, and if its of importance, then i just start typing ans my mind is thinking. i am literally speaking on hte paper, and sinec i can finish you with 6k + words per minute, then i can gun this thing like a lambo( black soprano what up!). yea so nate and i have been talking about obi's(my bro) guitar skills, and today something great was realized. nate sent me a beat, and i sthen went and sent it to obi, and this evening , actually like 10 mi ns ago, obi just sent me back the beat wth the guitar on it, and that shit is fire. its still stuck in my skull.
Interestingly, jess tells me she wants to swim tomorrow. i am playing it off cool like i am not enjoying this shit in a masculine way, but to her it just seems like kemji is having ordinary fun. i'ma keep playing it as smooth as snoop and i'll setup a pool appoitment tomorrow. i need to go and check to see if its open in the evening. hopefully jess can recruit one or 2 girls that will be scantily clad to the pool for some aqua sexuo exercise.lol. man i fucking forgot my nike gym bag in the library. i went back at like 11 15 pm ,and it wasn't there! clark peepls always stealing shit, but thats cool the bag was only $10, so hopefully after i get my first job i can afford it.
i did a good amount of studying for miracles of asia. i'm afraid if i keep bullshitting before the final, then i will underachieve , and nothing is more frustrating than getting a B in a class you know you are A material. thats the siuation in this class, and the professor knows thats the truth about the whole situation. raul went to monkey bar with jaime, and i'll see what comes off that . i've heard great things about that place, i dont know if niggaz turn into monkeys after a few shots at that place.

the swimming weekend

Ok, so this is whats really been going on with me.
2 DAYS AGO
Well all of a sudden i feel like swimming, and i don't know why. So i just make a call or 2, and i'm off to the kneller pool at 4pm, hoping that at least a few people will be there to at least cheer me up while i do some lonely, almost siicidal swimming on my own(like i have 0% kid in me or what?). So a few people like aaron and mamanda kind of committed,. but they all punked out sooner or later, so i was stil left ot my self at the pool, but luckily for me, there were aboput 10 people in the pool ,so i was free to just sit around and act like a kid at the pool. Leo, showed up and was like i need to swim, and he finally found some rasta white hippie guy who lent him his shorts. kind of wild, like how do you just giove someone you've never seen b4 your shorts? something that personal? c'mon now we.After an hr and a half, i left to go towards 21 maywood to bullshit, probably pilfer some food. :). while at the pool, i decided to see how fast i could swim the length of the pool. i actually booked 14seconds, but i don't know how long it was. i call that swimming style the rat style cause i'm just moving like a rat in the pool(well thats what i think).

YESTERDAY
Oh man, this day. not many days mdae me feel the wayti felt on this day. I finally decided to try and swim today with Jess, since she wanted to swim yesterday ,but she was busy getting fucked up at Tufts with sydney, so she wasn't getting back in time for the 2-6 pm schedule the pool had us on. In any case, leo was calling my phone off the hook just so i could come to the library and help his with some tootlage on MS word, but i kind of commited to it, but i didnt wanna do it, cause my sleep was worth quite a whole lot of shit.So i basically chill in the lobby, then i see jess come there looking all sexy and cute. God she was cute. she had the nice straps and all, and we just went to the pool. on the wayt to the pool , we had ot pass the men's shower room since jess was too scaredt o go thru the women's locker room to get to the pool, and on the way there, jess actually saw some asian guy's dick while he waws showering. that shit was wild. ashe tried to hide away from it while it was happening, but i think she was still curious enough tyo have seen it. So we have becca voss, another sexy one acting as lifeguard of that clark pool, and we have kemji, jess, sarah and tim chilling in the fucking pool. Sarah looks all natural with those nice breasts, and jess just looked so cute in some 2 piece thing i had never seen b4.Man it got wild. i was bombing jess from the side of the pool with some grenades i made out of my body while i jumped off the shorter diving board. she didn't like that, but it kept bringing her closer to me everything. it seemed like there was some attracting kind of playing going on between the 4 of us, but it was cool. more details later.